The one who “knows” what it is could tell you its knowledge but can’t lead you to be itself
The one who is itself spontaneously affects others.
I feel I’ve shifted and passed through the long tunnel which had started since Nov 2019.
Of course my evolution had never stopped and will never stop.
This transformation have continued since before.
But in some points, this big shift starts 1 year before,,,My fundamental sense had collapsed, I lost “I” sense and didn’t know who Misa is.
Somehow I lost my identity but still tried to keep my social aim to be as Misa.
I kept reminding myself to be into minimum activity, but “the sense” kept leading me into just “beingness”.
At the beginning of it, I felt “I was de-pressed so deeply” ( not, “I am depression”)
Teachers at Ahram smiled to me and told that I was transforming, I was shifting to something higher or better, I was in a cocoon that time.
“Just allow you to be as you are.”
Partly I allowed myself to be, partly of course I urge to move forward.
But when I was in front of Sri Aurobindo’s grave at his ashram, strong intuition told me “Leave everything which you are trying to do.
No need to think about the activity for “others” or “universe”.
Just enjoy to be yourself. Celebrate your being.”
In some point, it was difficult to accept, but “I” felt contentment to stay in.
I passed through blessings of Ramana Maharishi, Mooji baba and Maa, I visited Neem Karori Baba’s place and sit in meditation.
The voice told me to hold only the truth which is the core of my being, no to look for anything nor to worry.
Just to choose my happiness and love, “it = Everything in the universe” will unfold.
The truth is unfolding.
And even I don’t try to search or think, it will spontaneously appear.
Just let it be.
All masters and their consciousness are same.
Everything just appears as it is. There is no mean anymore to visit or meet the Holy.
By chance, I moved to the isolated island, no one knows me, I couldn’t have any sense of Misa, even while I was checking E-mail.
It was able to get Misa back in sense also, but I didn’t have to be with who I am socially.
Losing social identity is just a starting point to feel true self, it’s not true state of being.
But after these experience, I had enough time to live in solitude because of the world situation of 2020.
It works for my transformation well, I guess.
We are beings living in multi dimension at same time.
It’s not so difficult to be like this if we are aware of it.We don’t act weirdly, we don’t seem to be enlightened.
We remain completely “normal”.
We don’t have to seek for the truth. We don’t have to gain the happiness.
We don’t have to search our purpose.
It spontaneously appears. We don’t need to motivate ourselves. Vital force works in right way in perfect timing.
It is Divine.
Misa, 16th January 2021.